"Well… this had been brewing for a while, I guess. It wasn’t just Kink’s rejection that made me all… icy. I’ve been feeling insecure for a while now… I mean - I’m the CEO of my company, right? And… it’s doing just fine… on it’s own. I set it up to be able to be relatively self-sustaining, in case anything happened to me or the town or the valley, but I didn’t realize how… small that would make me feel."
"I felt rather useless, so I started kinda… avoiding things? Trying to find other ways to be useful. And I realized that… I don’t really do too much anymore. I sign the odd paperwork, make the odd presentation, but other than that the entire company does well on it’s own. Sometimes I think Mrs. Wiggins is a better CEO than I am…"
Winter chuckled a little darkly.
"So, I started to kind of - avoid my duties. I spent more and more time out of my office, out of my own home… and then… Well, Kink happened."
I” guess I just… didn’t take it very well. Being turned down by Kink, that is. I - I fell in love with him. And I’m still in love with him, if I’m honest with myself. But I didn’t stop to take his feelings into consideration - that’s my mistake. And when he turned me down - he didn’t do it rudely, actually, considering the circumstances he did it fairly gracefully - but I just…”
Winter huffed, looking away.
"I took it too personally. You see… I haven’t ever really - been in love. And this falling in love - it felt… right. So when I got turned down, I just kinda shut myself in. Kind of literally… I acted so immaturely."
"Then one thing after another… you left. I consider you my closest friend, Cold. And I’m not blaming you for anything - your home was completed, so of course you wanted to go back to your valley. I knew it was going to happen - it just felt like it happened so soon. I had wanted to spend so much more time with you, yet all I did was mope around in my room like some fat old lady, hah…"
"It kinda broke the camels back. I’m a useless CEO, I was turned down by my first crush in years, and my best friend was going away for I didn’t know how long. I just didn’t want to have anything to do with anyone so…"
"You saw what I let happen. I didn’t really KNOW what was happening - I just felt so…cold. And alone, and hurt. I just wanted the feelings to stop, for my heart to stop aching…"
Well, I get it now.
But the business… don’t you think… it’s an opportunity? You built one great thing. You don’t have to stop there. If it can stand by itself- that’s your chance to start something new. I’d kill for that…
And. For the record, I never wanted to leave. I don’t want to now, but I don’t want to hide from my valley. And I’ve got to get back to my-… cactus. —uhm- sorry, that sounds… I’m just. Worried. About the cactus.Anyway it doesn’t mean I don’t- want- to talk to you still. Y’know?